Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves

Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves   Wayne, my sponsor, approached me and told me it was time for step four followed closely by step five. I had heard about the difficulty some AA’ers had with these steps and for many, there was a direct correlation between doing or not doing or being honest and not being honest with slips and relapses. &nb...
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Made A Decision

Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God, as we understood Him.   Step Three         I have learned over the years that being a control freak is a curse, not a blessing. So when I started on this step I honestly wanted nothing to do with it. Most addicts are control freaks and if you look at the results, it didn’t turn out very well. We...
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Came To Believe

Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.   Step Two   I started working on this step at a perfect time. My pink cloud was still at full force but forces beyond my control, from problems I created, were about to be unleashed on me. Funny, about 4 weeks prior to getting sober I remember driving down the road thinking what an i...
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Happy Memorial Day!

Happy Memorial Day! Thank you so much to all the Veterans, families of Veterans, friends of Veterans and the caretakers of our Veterans. Without your service and sacrifice, none of us would be in the position we are in today. So thank you from the bottom of my heart and I wish you the best that life has to offer. If I can ever do anything for you please do not hesitate to reach...
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There are no coincidences in life (Blog 6)

There are no coincidences in this life. Happy Mother’s Day to the all Mothers out there. It’s amazing how God works. I once heard if you want to make God laugh, tell him you plans. How very true. To be at this part in my bi-monthly blog is way beyond coincidences. In our book, The Painting and The Piano, the prologue tells the story of my Father’s car accident and how that lead...
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One Hundred Percent Miserable

One hundred percent miserable! That would be the best way to describe my feelings that everybody wanted to know for some reason.   Why don’t you give up everything that you have known up to this point and see how you feel, I shouted to myself and absent outpatient counselors as I drove home from the meeting.   I chuckled to myself realizing that they had a...
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Hi, my name is John

Hi, my name is  John and I am an alcoholic.   I was not even close to being comfortable admitting that.   Hi John, My outpatient group of fourteen responded.   John, how many AA meetings did you attend this week? Asked Bob, our outpatient counselor.   Ten.   Very impressive, he replied.   As he went around the roo...
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The Next Morning

  The next morning I woke to another freezing cold St. Louis day. I took a shower having decided to go to the Sunriser’s AA meeting at Edgewood treatment center were I had just been released. I put on my best Brooks Brothers suit. After all it was Sunday morning and my ego was still with me and I was going to show these AA'ers who I was.   After chugging ...
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You Need To Start A Blog!

You need to start a blog! If I have been told once I have been told a thousand times. So I have succumbed to pressure and today is the day I start. My plan is to blog every two weeks on Monday for a year. What should I blog? I said to myself. I know a little about a lot but the one thing I know best is my story and the way my story can help people is to narrate ...
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